“what can wash away my sin?
-nothing but the blood of Jesus
what can make me whole again?
-nothing but the blood of Jesus
oh precious is the flow, that makes me white as snow
no other fount i know, nothing but the blood of Jesus”
i was at a women’s conference this weekend. i know, i know, you usually come home from these things “changed” or “wanting to change”. but, i have been wanting to change for some time now. i have been a Christian since i was 5. that’s 26 years now. on one hand, i praise the Lord that He saved me at such a young age. on the other, i wonder why has it taken so long, and so many attempts, to actually live like i’m saved. oh, i am not a bad person. i love my husband and my children. we have a nice home and nice cars. we are faithful at church, even serve there in multiple ways. we pay our bills. we pay our taxes. we shovel the sidewalk and even put the carts in the right place in the grocery store parking lot. i pray and sing in worship to my God, but my heart hasn’t chased after His in quite awhile.
so the conference broke me. no. not really. increased my desire, yes. but what broke me was the HUGE argument i had, about EVERYTHING, with my husband late last night. and as i stepped into the shower to get ready for bed, my heart just came spilling out to my God.
“what can wash away my sin?
-nothing but the blood of Jesus
what can make me whole again?
-nothing but the blood of Jesus
oh precious is the flow, that makes me white as snow,
no other fount i know, nothing but the blood of Jesus”
“oh, but Lord, i am so broken,” i sobbed. “i am so broken, so broken, so broken. i don’t love my husband the way i should. i don’t love my children the way i should. i don’t live for You the way i should. please help me.” and He so gently replied,
“come all ye who are weary
come all ye who are heavy laden
come all ye who are broken and suffering
and I will give you rest”
and over and over i sang it, “come all ye who are weary…” and for the first time ever, i realized, i have to come. i have to come to Him, and He will give me rest. all i have to do is simply come. He’s waiting. and for the first time, in a long time, i fell asleep last night with such peace. such a deep, sweet peace. the kind only Jesus can provide.
“this is all my hope and peace
-nothing but the blood of Jesus
this is all my righteousness
nothing but the blood of Jesus”
thank you Lord.
Filed under children, family, Jesus, marriage, music | Comment (1)“my God is so big…
so strong and so mighty, there’s nothing my God cannot do, for you!” i overheard wilbur proudly proclaiming yesterday as i was washing dishes. “i know that song”, i thought, “i bet i haven’t heard it in about 30 years.” turns out little 3 year old wilbur sings this song with his Sunday school teacher mrs. z. and guess what, mrs. z was my Sunday school teacher when i was 3! oh what joy!
amelia, a bit bothered by wilbur and i sharing in the joint knowledge of this song quickly proclaimed that her birth mother taught her this song when she was 1. i told her i wasn’t sure if this was true and that if it wasn’t, it was okay that she didn’t know the song and that wilbur and i did. i told her we could teach it to her and then we would all know it together.
after she and josh came home from church last night she told me she made up a new song about Jesus. “my Jesus is big, He’s strong and He’s mighty, there’s nothing my Jesus won’t do, for you.” “see”, she said, “it’s like the song you and wilbur sing, only it says Jesus instead of God.”
how am i so deserving of these little ones?!? and that they already have such an awareness of our Savior. thank you Lord!
Filed under children, family, Jesus, music | Comment (1)Happy Easter and One Year
Happy Easter! He is risen!
at the start, He was there, He was there
in the end, He’ll be there, He’ll be there
and after all, our hands have wrought, He forgives
oh the glory of it all, is He came here
for the rescue of us all, that we may live
for the glory of it all, for the glory of it all
all is lost, find Him there, find Him there
after night, dawn is there, dawn is there
after all, falls apart, He repairs, He repairs
oh the glory of it all, is He came here
for the rescue of us all, that we may live
for the glory of it all, oh He is here
for redemption from the fall, that we may live
for the glory of it all, oh the glory of it all
the glory of it all, oh the glory of it all
after night, comes a light, dawn is here, dawn is here
it’s a new day, it’s a new day
everything will change
things will never be the same
we will never be the same
oh the glory of it all, is You came here
for the rescue of us all, that we may live
for the glory of it all, oh You are here
with redemption for us all, that we may live
for the glory of it all, oh the glory of it all
the glory of it all, oh the glory of it all
everything will change
things will never be the same
we will never be the same
today is also the one year anniversary of the day we met our children. this is how they looked that precious, precious day.
amelia
wilbur
orville
